Exactly a month ago, I threw in the towel. I was less than a week from hopping on a plane bound for the literal opposite side of the world to see things my heart couldn’t fathom and my head couldn’t compute. Stress compounded upon stress and I felt like the proverbial camel must feel as he watches the straws pile up on his back, wondering which will be the one.
I made a decision for myself that I would have the month off of following my Medifast plan. There are 8 million reasons why this isn’t the best plan of action in general, but for me it was the temporary grace I needed to feel like I was going to survive the crazy that mid-August to mid-September held for me.
Naturally, Not Being On Plan quickly became Eating All The Emotions which shows me that I still have a long way to grow in the area of my relationship with food. The reality is, stressful seasons of life are not an excuse to eat and live in a way that makes me gain 6 lbs. Yea, you heard me. Six pounds in not as many weeks. I threw up my hands at the pressure of it all and as a result I have lost a precious amount of ground on my journey to a healthy weight. To be fair, I don’t know what the alternative would have looked like for me emotionally. At the time it sure seemed like what I needed to do for myself and my family – not the resultant over eating, just the freedom of not being on plan.
This time off has taught me a very important lesson: eating healthy is not for a season, it is for a lifetime. I will not always be on Medifast, but by the time I reach my goal weight and maintain it for at least a year, I sure as hell better have my self-control act together. I’ve understood that in theory before, but now I know the reality of it. I have some serious work to do emotionally, mentally, and physically.
In a completely different context, a wise woman told me recently to start where you are. I can’t go back and make myself find the balance between eating Medifast and over-eating for the last month, but I can take a stand right here and say let’s do this thing.
As of today, I am officially back at it, running (O my goodness! The Autumn weather! LOVE.) eating healthy, drinking water, weighing in. Bring it on, health and goal weight.
My Journey to Health:
December 30, 2011, 187 lbs
April 28, 2012: 160lbs
July 27, 2012: 152lbs
September 18, 2012: 158lbs
35 29 lbs lost!
23 lbs to go!
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Disclosure: I receive free product in order to evaluate and comment on my experiences on the Medifast Nursing Mothers Program. I will only ever tell you how I actually feel about this experience and the Medifast products. Pinky swearsies. I am supposed to tell you that the Medifast Program is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease or illness and that any medical improvements noted while on the program are related to weight loss in general, and not to Medifast products or programs. K, you got that? Good. There will be a quiz later.