Today, I have
used words I regret.
yelled words I regret.
been less than gentle.
lost my temper.
wished I were elsewhere.
been less than understanding.
given rough touches.
served myself first.
seen my blessings as burdens.
a Father who forgives me, even when I haven’t yet forgiven myself.
I needed this right now.
& I’m re-reading it until it sinks in.
Praise Him whose mercies are new every morning.
I have days like this too, then at the end of the day I look back at my actions and wonder what happened to me. We are so lucky to have such an understanding and forgiving Father!
((hugs)) You are not alone and I totally understand.
We all have those days–sending thoughts and prayers until these moments pass…
I needed to hear that too…and this: “Remember? He asks for Praise not Perfection… Grace not Grindstone…” ~ Farmer Voskamp (from aholyexperience.com). God is so good to us… to give us what we don’t deserve when we don’t deserve it. Praying for His overflowing love to be poured out on you today.
P.S. On days like this I always wonder if my harsh words have ruined my son for life. But God gives grace to our kids too… and He teaches our kids not just through our good moments, but also through our bad moments and our repentance and reconciliation.
Well, number one, self forgiveness is a farse. No where in the Bible does it call for self forgiveness… in fact, if we buy into that, we are in fact giving OURSELVES power over God. And I think I know you well enough to know that you are a wise, wise woman who adores the Lord. Your sins are ALREADY forgiven.
Number two, girl, I am crying those frustrated tormented tears with you. Being pregnant and having hormone overkill and being a mom is TOUGH! There are those days.. well… kinda like the one you have described… that just rock us to our core.
You are so much more then this moment… you are such an amazing mommy (yes, even when you are yelling) and wife and child of God. You are what Jesus died for.
You are an inspiration. You are flawed. You are loved.
And while words cant take away your frustrations… prayers and leaning on the One who can heal can. I will be praying my heart out for you.
Remember that EVERYONE has these days. Breathe deeply, kiss your beautiful son, dream of the child you are carrying and know (and most importantly believe) that tomorrow will be better.
Thank you for being real with us. I totally understand the frustration, and I am glad you recognize what you have in Him :)
I have tears in my eyes.
JUST TODAY, I was talkin’ to my Momma. We were catching up on everything that’s going on in “my circle” back home. She was filling me in on everything, and a friend had lost her job.
This friend told her that it was beautiful reminder to “Be thankful for EVERYTHING. Even the bad.”
That’s hard to swallow. To be thankful for the things we don’t like. The things that hurt.
But there’s good in all of it. There’s happiness on the other side.
I know a little girl who is ONE WEEK CANCER FREE TODAY.
My husband’s mom had surgery today and is doing great recovering right now.
Austin fell asleep after 15 tuck ins.
You’re growing a BABY INSIDE YOU.
Miracles, I tell you. None too big. None too small.
I had what you had today. I don’t like those days.
But you’re right- at the end of the day, He forgives. There IS Grace.
He will give you all and only what you need to get through this day.
Only what you need. Daily bread.
His hand is on your shoulder. Reach up, and hold it.
And then reach down and hold OBaby’s hand.
Sending you love.
Hope I’m not crazy for rambling! ;)
My. Day. Too. Oh, I will never fathom His forgiveness.
amen sister. amen.
Hugs to you. Hes ready to forgive before you’ve even had a hard day.
My. Day. Exactly. Oh, I will never be able to fathom His grace.
This describes my day to every last crossed “t” and dotted “i”
I needed this.
Hugs to you from me.
Yes, this was my today too…
Oh thankfully HE is forgiving and tomorrow is another day.
And then I bought mint truffle kisses.
This was my day too, I felt like I just lost it.
Thank you so much for posting this today of all days! I am so grateful to have a forgiving God, even when it’s hard to forgive myself.
Really… I’m having quite a day too. I actually blogged about it. My kids have me at my wits end today (I nearly lost it in the grocery store.)
We all have days like that. Yesterday was one for me. Today was much better. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you!
I’ve been voting for you every time I think about it! Hugs.
I’m your friend Sarah’s sister. I could’ve written this today. God’s mercy and grace abound that’s for sure! Tomorrow is a fresh start. Just know you aren’t alone. Thanks for sharing this.
I’m feeling this one tonight. God has grown a lot of patience on this vine the last few years. But today? Today was pushing me. I was constantly checking myself and trying to reorient and focus on the bigger things so I wouldn’t melt down. I’m thankful each day is new, that He forgives, that He can help me grow.
This is word-for-word my day. Thank you for this. Thank you for the reality and the reminder of what matters.
I have this written down and although I’m sure it’s meant for humor, it really does help me when I have days like this:
Lord grant me the patience to deal with my blessings.
Oh, isn’t that amazing! That even when we feel our worst, we have a Father that can see past it. I wish I could be more of a parent like Him.
I hope your day gets better.
I could have pretty much written this post today.
Finding this today of all days is a blessing to me. Thank you.
i just came across your blog! i’m hooked and what you just said is how i have felt before…thank goodness for Christ!
Thank you for sharing this. We all have days like this. We are forgiven. Tomorrow is a new day and I’m guessing hubby will be home to help you as it’s Saturday right? :)
Thanks for sharing. More than once I have sat down after the kids have gone to bed and felt ashamed at my parenting. The things I yelled, the patience I lacked, the battles I chose, the selfishness of my actions, knowing that I (emotionally) hurt my kiddos with my behavior. Those are hard nights and fortunately they don’t happen very often but they are also the sorts of things that are not written about in parenting books and I think most parents have them. That’s why I love blogging so much. It tells the truth.
We must remember we need to have rain in order to see the rainbows. Sending hugs your way!
This is so beautiful. It describes me everyday, almost. I want to print this and post it. And remember that every moment of my life is bathed in grace. Thank you for this.
This is my story too, love.
I am so SO thankful for Grace.
For the Father who is the better parent.